make all the excuses you want
say all the right words
in the right order
smile.
i feel nothing and everything
as though I know the ending to this movie
but i still have to play the part.
wishing i was mistaken
watching as the walls go up
yours and mine.
it’s raining outside
and i drive
from one place to the next
my mind as clouded as the sky.
watching things fall apart
in slow motion
wondering if,
like the leaves,
this is part of the cycle
or if it is gone
for good.
i need you
but i cannot ask for you
i stay quiet
and
try to breathe
through it all
i dont understand any of this
but maybe
it will be ok
i’m yours
even when you dont want me
and it all seems bleak.
trust yourself.
you are so much more
than the lies you tell yourself.
stay, and you’ll see.
come find me
in the moonlight
or as the sun comes up
it doesn’t matter,
i’ll be waiting.
to feel your fingertips
graze across my lips
and your breath
on my neck
as you whisper what you want.
knowing you’ll get it
teasing me to exasperation
but i can play that game too.
what are you waiting for?
I spend so much time
deleting the line I just wrote to you
second guessing.
staring at the blinking cursor
which dares me
to let down my walls.
